Message to the children of Light. Anyone with an ear, let them hear… anyone with an eye, let them see…


…and I landed on a planet filled with crazy people walking around…driving everyone around them totally in sane. The beast they worshipped was controlling every move, every thought…yet they couldn’t see it themselves. The lower self had taken over, ego, pride, shame, falsehood.

My mother was full of fury, shaking, spitting fire, going crazy with all the evil that was done upon her..

and my father shouted down at me: “For the love of Christ, child of mine…do something…your mother can’t take any more. Soon the sons of man will be destroyed”

I said “I can’t put my will upon them. They have lost their dignity. Evil spirits are attached to them from the pit of the dark night….they are filled with lies, controlled like puppets and they can’t see thee. They must chose them SELVES to be free”

Some of them worshipped a man on a cross, named Jesus (Zeus= god of war)  and were told that it was Christ. Yet they did not know what “Christed” really meant. They couldn’t see the real light and used religion to create war and to quarrel amongst them. Some of them were walking around a cube and keeping the female in prison. They were told that man was above woman. (But they never understood the true meaning of that) and took it literally..  The beast saw them fight and laughed…”all is fine. They are fighting their selves. I’ve tricked them well. They are so blind that they will never see me.”

And my father said….”gather my children and let them hold the light so strongly that they will see the maya of illusion. In them is the power to conquer the old and shape a new reality. Teach your selves how to do so….the miracle is within thee”

And so it was done…

and the evil ones were cast down in the lake of fire, purified to their natural state.

So remember…. 

Light will always conquer darkness. .make sure it is within thee

Do not take pride upon you and treat my children equally. Lighten up your selves and embrace the darkness in thee…”

Light meditation for the Children of Light

The end of times and the new world arising….

215C19D0-4432-4EF0-9903-01E4BB547E76I came across this video of a woman. I know she is telling the truth. The self, the  IAM, God, the source,…whatever people call it…whether you are religious or not…it exists…it has the name I AM…because it simply “is”, unlike the ego which is I WANT TO BE. Most people are on their ego, full of desires, and feel no connection whatsoever with the I AM….but there is a shift going on…people are waking up.

Understand that dreams or messenges  from the self are in a kind of code form. You have to be connected to understand the true meaning and interpret it from an ego-less state. We are talking about another dimension here. Understand also that “Christ” is not a person…but that it is a personification of the kristos, the kundalini energy rising and opening your third eye, which can shine as bright as the eye in the sky! 

Your ego is the one afraid of dying and is hanging on and attaching to everything around it, in survival modus….making you feel VERY IMPORTANT. Actually it doesn’t exist. It needs the reassurance of other people to be able to exist. When you become true self, you will realise that you are just energy within a body and that all these labels you hold onto are pointless. You are NOTHING….which is exactly the opposite of what your ego wants you to be…This state of Nothingness is a very powerful state…but your own ego and ego-society is keeping you away from it…scared that you will find your own power within.

This is the video of the woman :

About this….

Don’t be scared. I’ll explain it to you….”NOTHING can live”…..true….you have to be “nothing” and “nobody” to find your true self, your divine self….everybody wants to be somebody and is so afraid to be nothing (that is the ego talking) but from this “nothing” you will meet with everything.

Read “The Key” in my attached tweet on Twitter @2_11x11….you will understand

There’s a lot of people out there who can help you, a lot of “lights” that are shining through the darkness. 

I will give you one video . He is genuine and pure.  Now notice that there are people who want to jump on the wagon of enlightenment to enrich themselves and who will charge you 400 dollars to give you half truths. 

The self takes care of its people….everyone who knows, would know better than to do this. Don’t fall for that. There are people out there who share their experiences and help without asking for huge summs of money!

My book “The Key” is totally free for you to read, go to (hit the pdf button for easy reading)  

This is my weird way of helping those who are looking for truth. Furthermore it is inside you! Dig deep! Be truth and you will see truth!


Lighten up….🔆11

Mirror mirror on the wall…

7BAD348C-38A0-49D7-A464-13403D415093Society has become increasingly narcissistic. I call it ego-society. Yet, I cannot judge the ones who participate willingly or unwillingly in this epidemic. We all have free will to chose ego or real self. 

All these “selfies” out there are not healthy. Every time I have to create a video to one of my songs, I know I am creating an image for people. Somehow I don’t want to be caught up in it too much and I don’t want to live up to this image that people might want to see of me. It’s just an image, not reality!

It is hard out there to be your real self and even harder to make people see their  true self. Sometimes people get scared of you, feel threatened and victimised when you don’t support the false image they have. They will even grab hold of other people and turn them against you and make you look like the bad person.

The threat that people feel is that their narcissistic supply will no longer be delivered to them. Narcissism makes you need people to be able to feel better. Without the reassurance of the people around you or the crowd….supporting all those labels that you think you are….you no longer exist.

When I make a painting, there will be people around me who will tell me “you should paint nature”, while I am painting a half-naked woman with flowers on her breasts. When I make a song I don’t even bother about all the critics who would like me to make a different type of song. That is their narcissism trying to control my creativity and turn my own creation in what THEY would like to see. In my mind I just point my middle finger at them and I tell them I’m just doing my own thing. I don’t need anyone’s approval to do what I am doing. I’m not anyone’s dog or trophy. Nobody tells me what to paint, write, sing, say or believe. My reason of existence does not depend upon the validation of others.

I don’t think that anyone is free of narcissism. Hell, I watch out daily not to overstep my own boundaries or the ones of others, while making sure not to be affected by any ego-manipulation of some kind. At times when I have emotional or relational imbalances and I can’t take much more, I can feel threatened and turn into an outburst of anger too. It has its negative effects on the well-being of my body and mind and on the people I am around. It usually freaks people out to see this other side of me. I call this part of me “the crocodile” and it comes up when I feel very unsafe. It’s linked to my childhood, when I used to get outbursts of anger towards my mother who would blame and put guilt upon me while she would roll herself theatrically in the position of a victim. She would do that to my father too. I don’t blame anyone. It just was this way. We all have childhood memories which aren’t that great. Who knows what ever happened to my mother in her childhood that made her become that way? My father had a lot to endure too. My mother seems to think that is funny. I think it’s sick. There is a lot of narcisssism behind closed doors. Families are not always what they appear to be. Espacially those who hide behind their catholic face and seem so perfect….they hide behind a mask of innocence.

But now that I’m older, if this simular situation reaccurs into my life, I get back into this state of mind that I was in then. It’s not something I can controle and it is hard to get rid off once it is out of its cage. So, believe me…I know what it feels like to be overwhelmed by anger.

I don’t have all the answers, I don’t know everything….or like Emmanuel from Faulty Towers would say: “I know nothing”. I am just merely trying to help in my own way. Nothing I do is perfect because I am not perfection. Some people feel ashamed when confronted with their own imperfection. Why? 

Every imperfection turns you into a unique being. A blind person has sharper hearing. If we all help each other out and share our truths, visions, experiences….we will see the bigger picture. Don’t be afraid to be your real self, however vulnerable, imperfect or unordinary it may be. When people laugh at you, let them laugh. Just show the world that you love and respect your REAL self and that you no longer want to be manipulated into this image society wants you to be. Let them call you “weird” and “crazy”. Why would you care about what certain people – who can’t even think for themselves – think of you? Don’t try to convince them either or force them into taking off their masks, because their denial will be all-convincing. The only thing you can do to change society and this world is to be your true self and thereby lead by example. 

Be compassionate towards those who can’t reach their true self, because the process is very painful for some and nobody really wants to go through that. Don’t let them hurt you either. Just be around, not to be used or abused, not to reinforce someone’s false image and support the ego….but to understand their pain. Understand also that people’s pain might be so deep that they can’t afford to really care about you and are afraid to get hurt for caring that deeply. Keep your distance and don’t get caught up in it personally. When you see no way out, just walk away. Don’t become a victim, don’t lend your self to those who are looking for self – been there, done that 🙄 – but show them how to find their real self by example.

I’ve tried out numerous ways to deal with my own and other’s people narcissism. But it is so entangled into this society that it takes an effort from everyone to deal with this problem. We should all stop and point the finger at each other and embrace our own shadow. Remind yourself that narcissism is inside everyone, inside me and you. This whole ego-society is build around it and the people who have the most narcissitic traits have found their way to the top. Narcissism can drive someone to grow completely cold, uncompassionate, full of hate, jealoussy and resentment. The worst of them have no trouble doing vicious, hateful and unfair things and they will achieve their goal….even if they have to walk all over everyone and manipulate an entire nation. Don’t get caught into their trap of manipulation. Become aware of narcissism and of the manipulation through ego, of what REAL self is.  This society is sick and we need to heal it….start by becoming aware of all the labels that are glued onto your ego, cut the cords and find your REAL self. It’s totally not easy to manipulate people who are aware of ego and who have made the choice to lay down their mask and show their real self. If we all did this, this world would be a better place!

The greatest gift you can give to the world is to be your REAL self

are you aware now what this commercial is trying to tell you?  See commercial

Unhealthy narcissism: when love becomes a dependency


The mechanism is really simple when you look at things from a distance.

People become increasingly narcissistic when you support their false self, their ego, the image they have created for themselves and exists merely out of labels that were glued onto them at some part of their lives.

It is a system of manipulation going on between people which creates a dependency. It is nowhere near based on facts but on sustaining a false image to hide feelings of minority. 

The problem is that when you never see through “why I ended up in such relationship”, you keep making the same mistakes over and over again.

Let’s say that a woman meets a man and she sees he is unhappy…but she doesn’t really know why ….empathic as she is and associating her image only with her good side ( also a label) she will start to communicate with that man.

She will automatically feel his minority complex and give him false complements where he needs them. Mistake number one: she will tell him “I think you are beautiful” while knowing that he is far far away from looking like Brat Pitt. But it has started. She just set hook number one into a man by telling him a lie to make him feel better. It all seems very innocent and full of good intentions for both parties. He starts to like her and she feels appreciated.

The best thing in this situation would have been to tell the truth, something like…”beautiful men are usually gay. So what if you don’t look all that great? Looks aren’t everything. But you have a kind of charisma….something that glows from within” 

In this way the woman’s message would have been : I accept you the way you are, now accept your true self. Do you see the difference?

Mistake number 2: “I will do whatever you want me to do”. The woman will try to please him to be able to keep him, afraid of losing him. She will play the second violin for him, supporting him in his achievements, his hobbies, she will even go fishing with him and innerly feel repulsed when she sees him killing a fish. But she loves him…so that’s why she does it.

After doing this for over a couple of years the result will be that the man will feel  so good about himself that he won’t even appreciate the woman that supported him. It will be All about him and the woman will be left unhappy, knowing that she is basically filling up someone else’s life and has no real value herself. She really doesn’t want to support him anymore and she sees him getting more and more negative towards other people: he is now so desperately hooked to this feeling of “superiority” that he is trying to feel better by devaluating other people.  

  • After a while she meets another man and the story repeats itself. No lesson learned. 
  • This is only one example, but I bet a lot of women see themselves in this situation. Also a lot of men who want to be their true self, feel trapped into their lives and feel unable to be their true selves.
  • This is why most people feel unhappy….they are trapped in a situation of manipulation into society, into their relationship or simply within their selves. True happiness can only be found within.

So people in interacting with each other…don’t suck up to each other and say things which aren’t true…but be honest (not blunt) and tell it like it really is. We all need to accept our real selves, our shadow side. Nobody is perfect….yet everybody is so afraid of being “nobody”. However only a nobody has full potential to become everything, only WITHOUT labels we can see our full potential and start growing towards the light!


Nothing is what it seems

6B1F9AE3-33F3-4E6E-8407-21D8244F4F34I appreciate every experience I have had. The good ones and the bad ones. Because nothing is ever totally good or bad. Every experience I have had in the past was a lesson that gave me awareness. I wouldn’t know what I know today without those “experiences”.

This world is ruled by another dimension, not by people…I can just say this, because I know that 99,9% of the people won’t believe me. That’s o.k. 

Without experiencing this “other dimension”, you will never know about it…and you will never know that life is just a game to them.

Just like there is infrared below our visible spectrum, there are invisible lower energies that cling onto the ego and drag people down. On the other hand, just like ultraviolet..there are energies that pull you up into your real self and take you up towards the higher self, the IAM, the source, the divine self. 

That is the ongoing fight between the light and the darkness.

If I would tell you all I know so far, I would probably freak out millions of people just for a while. But the truth is in fact so unbelievable that nobody wants to assume it is reality. 

One day I just woke up and I knew, I saw all the connections, and it was so surreal …I felt like I had just walked into a painting of Dali.

I wondered what would happen if I got this information out in the open. So I told a few people (who thought I was in some kind of psychosis) and by now will have forgotten everything I’ve told them. However this “other dimension” instantly made it clear to me that “giving away this kind of information” would have its consequences for “those of my kind”. Whatever they did was striking and so specific that it made me realise that I wasn’t just imagining it. I knew this had to remain a secret. There was a purpose for all this. I searched the internet and what I know is out there…even with proof. Some day a whole bunch of people are going to wake up to the truth. But it’s everyone’s decision to look for the truth, find it, accept it and live with the responsibility of knowing it. 

The power of the IAM is within you and within every energy. Use it wisely. 

You are important. Every decision you make affects the whole and can drive humanity towards the light or towards darkness. Stand above your own beast, above what you were ever tought to believe, above pride / shame / popularity / achievements /materialism …. above every selfish motive. Get out of this box that was created around you and take off any label that was glued upon your box. Simply BE and see what you can do to bring back the humanity into this world. No matter where you are or what you do..  whatever your limitations….there is always something you can do. Even when there is nowhere left for you to go….go right within and find your REAL SELF and start asking questions. You will get answers!

What did you do today that brought you joy?


I’m not the typical usual person and when someone comes up to me wanting to be friends…the first question I expect to hear is “what do you do for a living?”

But yesterday someone surprised me and asked me in the evening “what did you do today that brought you joy?” I thought, “waw, he’s right. I should think about enjoying my life more often…instead of solving problems and after that more problems”.

That question really touched me deeply. My answer was that I baked an apple cake. I enjoy creating, whether it is a cake, a good meal, a song, a painting. 

As a lightworker, dealing with this dark world of today, seeing problems everywhere and doing the best we can to make people aware, we sometimes forget to take moments to enjoy. So, I’ve taken up the challenge to do something every day that gives me joy and to be fully aware of this joy. Even in the smallest things there is joy. 

What did you do today that brought you joy, and if you didn’t….do it.. 

Thanks Fabio for asking me that question!

The only way to get out is to get in!

207728C1-41DC-45E1-B1C2-4261F5C591E0There is a whole other world behind this tangible world, where energies are at work. But you need another consciousness to be aware of that world. 

The door to this hidden world is inside each and everyone of us! The problem is that most people are a prisoner of the world outside of them. We are all looking for freedom and happiness on the outside.


Only the people who experience this occult world can tell you about it.

There is no reason to be afraid of this world of energies, unless your frequency is so low that you attract lower energies towards yourself. Like attracts like. That’s why we should all raise our frequency.

Think and feel loving and positive towards your own self and the self of others. Be compassionate. See behind your own mask and behind the mask of others. Most people are afraid to be themselves and were hurt along the way. It takes a great deal of courage to lose your own mask, look at your true self, feel all the pain and suffering, the guilt, the hate, the manipulation of your own ego…upto the point that you can finally FREE YOUR REAL SELF.  We should all get out of the prison we have created for our selves. Whatever we desire are not TRUE desires. Most desires are thoughts which were somehow manipulated into our minds, pulling us like cords on a puppet to do things, buy things… and we all are a part of this big puppet show, keeping it real while all reality seems to be lost somehow..

Cut the cords now!

If you would have all your desires fulfilled this very instant, you would be thrilled for a while and then suddenly it would dawn upon you: nothing has changed and I’m still longing to fill this void inside of me. How come? Why do I feel so unfulfilled? You would start looking for the anwers inside and suddenly a whole other world would open up to you.   Finally you would realise that it’s better to find the value in your own true self than to find it outside your self or to know your own true self than to desire to be known. Because when you find all those things inside your self, there will no longer be a need to find them outside your self and you will see through any kind of manipulation that is put upon you. You will feel complete, free, happy and you will experience a new awareness: one that exceeds you own limited thinking. You will have “seen the light” and you will start shining your own true self and know that as a light it is your duty to shine and enlighten this world and -symbolically – uncover a world of milk and honey where we all get to drink from the fountain of youth.

I agree with David Lynch about this